~ March 29, 2004 - 12:46 p.m. ~
Boring Dreams, Big Plans
The Boring DreamMost boring dream ever the other night. It began quite promisingly. I was walking down a foggy cobble-stoned street that was wet as thought it was raining. It was night, and I think I was on a bridge from the way the road arched and the low walls on either side. There were old-fashioned street lamps guttering in the fog, and in the mist before me, there were shadowy figures. Eerie something-is-about-to-happen movie soundtrack music was playing as I advanced. But then that was all that happened. I just kept walking and walking and walking, and I never got off the bridge and the shadowy figures got further and further away until they disappeared. And then I started to realize it was a dream and I got bored, and then the music crapped out like �Well if nothing�s going to happen I�m outta here� and I was left walking in silence. The dream dragged on forever, and I was just bored out of my mind and it. Wouldn�t. Fucking. End! It was a huge relief when my alarm clock went off, because damn I was bored.
Other than that, I�ve gone and done a stupid-Gina-thing and taken too much on. Again. I just finished doing Perdita�s costumes for Titus , but it took about five days of non-stop sewing, with late-nights, early mornings, and one 20-hour non-stop sewing stint with pAndi that lasted until 6 am. I was really sorry to drag her into it, because I always do that shit. I felt really guilty because it�s my shit, my problem, I should have started sooner (like when Perdita was still in town would have been smart), and pAndi�s got enough of her own crap on her plate right now. And she never asks me to bail her ass out like that, so I feel nice and cruddy.
I probably wouldn�t have had to call in the Panda-Cavalry if I hadn�t also been involved in a production right now. It�s called Dante�s Commedia and it�s at the Tank this Thursday and Friday at 7 pm. Come. Please. I�m begging you. It�ll be good, I promise. It involves me doing Canto V at one point and Sister Wendy curating of the Art of Hell. As well as ante-Purgatory as a doctor�s office, God goes to the therapist, Paradise in Five Minutes, and a gigantic manifesto of art-creation-death-and-god as performed in a New Age amalgamation of religious ceremonies. Well, I�m not doing all those, the other cast members are. But it will wholly rock. Be there.
And then the Mitchell applications opened up, so yeah! I get to start on that, which makes me dance for joy.
And finally, I took this nifty quiz, which just further validates (if an internet quiz is capable of doing so) that it�s the right moment in my life to move the fuck on, so I am. I am a Violet formost with tied Blue and Yellow runners-up. Squee!
PS. To all BoS fans, Scriobhaim will be updated in the next 24 hours, come hell or high water. Count down begins . . . NOW!
VIOLETS
Violets are the inspirational visionaries, leaders and teachers who are here to help save the planet. Most Violets feel drawn to educate the masses, to inspire higher ideals, to improve the quality of life on the planet, or to help save people, animals and the environment.
All Violets have an inner sense that they are here to do something important, that their destiny is greater than that of the average person. Most Violets have felt this way since childhood. As children, many Violets imagined becoming famous, or traveling the planet, possibly joining humanitarian causes such the Peace Corp. Many of these charismatic personalities take on roles as leaders and teachers, while other Violets prefer to reach people through music, film or other art form.
Because this era is currently the "Violet Age," any Violets who are not accomplishing what they came here to do are experiencing an inner �push� � even an inner �earthquake.� Inner forces seem to be shaking them up and pushing them to move into action, to fulfill their life purpose. Violets know they are here to do something significant. However, they aren't always sure what that something is or how to accomplish it.
Many Violets were taught as children that their dreams and aspirations were unrealistic, so they have lost touch with their original visions. It's important for Violets to reconnect with their life purpose and vision, and to take action. Otherwise they will always feel unfulfilled. They will always sense something is missing from their lives. Violets need to learn to slow down long enough to listen to their inner voice and to connect with their higher vision.
